I have always been alone. Long distance is only a distraction and a burden. Being alone is better than being paranoid. For all of us who are alone, wait. Wait for the right person. I believe time will work us out as long as we are willing to wait.

about 9 hours ago

I spend my entire day selling engagement rings to people. Part of me hates them because they have the money to spend 20k on fucking rocks. The other part resents that they have found that person that makes them happy. I say I don't like marriage when in reality if I had had my way, I'd have been married for 6 years now. I miss you Cole,  and I hope she makes you happy.

6 days ago

19 days ago

So Fucking lonely even with folks around and with no good fucking reason. Better try and sleep and hope tomorrow is better.

about 1 month ago

Oh also. Considering I've fucked over 6 dudes in the last month I'm kinda thinking I need to get tested. If my world ended I'd be fine with that. Goodnight me.

about 1 month ago

I hate my job, but I love the people. And I keep waiting for the day they'll tell me I'm not doing it well enough. Part of me would be happy to get fired cause at least I can have free time again, but the other part of me knows I won't find something that pays this well for awhile. I don't like being afraid though. No one tells you how much fear there is when you get older...

Also, In my quest to meet folks I've seemed to have lead on 2.5 people... Part of me wants to just say fuck it and tell them all what I really think of them. I like your dog and I think you're trying to hard to get me to like you. I think I'd like to mess around with you sexually, but I'm so tired of dating older guys. And you... You smell like B.O. have a weird voice and make really campy gay photography, so I'm fine with being your friend, but please don't mistake my interest in you for something romantic.

Between the other two? I think I'll go for the puppy and hope I can come to terms with your quirks. And as sad as it makes me to dump somebody, I think it best I be honest with you; I potentially think sex with you would be fun, but no more emotional attachment to older guys.
 We're doomed.

about 1 month ago

Well I fucked that one up. I'll just tell myself 'whatever' over and over again like I always do.

2 months ago

Every time I'm beginning to everything straight and sorted in my mind, someone comes along and makes me feel bad about myself all over again.

3 months ago

Bitches and hoes.

4 months ago

Ever since you cheated me, ever since you dumped me off, you fucked my life. I hate you, yet I still love you, you've ruined me, yet I miss you. You were the one girl I loved for so long, I moved to another state for you, just so you can cheat on me not once, but twice. You are what has brought on this bi-polar, selfish, angry person. You have made me hate humanity and everything that is life. It was you.

5 months ago