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A Shout from Tue, 08 May 2012 05:40:41 +0000

Tue, 08 May 2012 05:40:41 +0000

I don't want to be afraid anymore.

A Shout from Tue, 01 May 2012 23:34:55 +0000

Tue, 01 May 2012 23:34:55 +0000

LIFE IS HARD LIFE IS HARD LIFE IS HARD LIFE IS HARD. I need to sleep. I need her to stop pretending she doesn't remember the love we had. I need to fall asleep for a very long time so that perhaps when I wake it will all go back to how it used to be.

A Shout from Sat, 28 Apr 2012 17:52:18 +0000

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 17:52:18 +0000

Despair.

A Shout from Tue, 24 Apr 2012 05:24:43 +0000

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 05:24:43 +0000

When I ask you to dance, I don't want to talk. I just want to dance. Hush and lean your head into my shoulder. That's all I ask.

A Shout from Fri, 20 Apr 2012 04:41:07 +0000

Fri, 20 Apr 2012 04:41:07 +0000

Will you please stop asking "whats the purpose of your existence?" You were given no choice while you entered this world. but you have the choice of either doing something about it or do nothing at all. Really, get to work and stop yelling inside my head

A Shout from Sat, 14 Apr 2012 19:37:42 +0000

Sat, 14 Apr 2012 19:37:42 +0000

My new horizon pool costs over $400 a month to heat.

A Shout from Mon, 09 Apr 2012 15:26:15 +0000

Mon, 09 Apr 2012 15:26:15 +0000

I didn't want it to end this way but it had to. She didn't have anyone and she won't be missed so it's not actually a crime since nobody will be sad that she's gone.

A Shout from Fri, 16 Mar 2012 00:55:58 +0000

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 00:55:58 +0000

fuck

A Shout from Thu, 15 Mar 2012 03:07:14 +0000

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 03:07:14 +0000

I feel strange about it all. Truth is, I love him very much... but people change when you tell them how you feel. The man you once knew as a friend is completely different from the one you kissed goodnight the other day. He still winks his eyes when he smiles, and he is still lastingly radiant, yet he is so unfamiliar to me.
I feel pent up, in a way. Its sad to say, but I was not made for commitment. I was made to be elusive because I haven't the faintest clue how to love someone right. I was meant to be the goddamn charm that nobody could catch, but now I've broken the idea bound to me. I faltered and I was caught by his spell. Still, I have no idea how to sit quietly in a room and enjoy it. I need to run and I need to feel in charge of every fucking moment of my life.
I can't tell if I messed up or not. I can't tell how to act, how to hold myself, how to respond to his touch. He asks that I lean on him and he lends his shoulder when I feel bad, but the only balance I know is on my own two feet.
I just need to learn how to love! It's so hard!! Grah.

A Shout from Mon, 27 Feb 2012 19:19:08 +0000

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 19:19:08 +0000

It breaks my heart that people can be so impossibly cruel to each other.