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A Shout from Sat, 11 Feb 2012 14:49:11 +0000

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 14:49:11 +0000

I have no reason to exist, but I don't want to make people that like me cry.

I wish I was never born.

A Shout from Wed, 01 Feb 2012 02:12:02 +0000

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 02:12:02 +0000

Face me, demons of the heart, destroyers of the mind. Face me and be defeated one by one. I have lived far too long to lose to lust and dullness.

A Shout from Sat, 28 Jan 2012 02:31:55 +0000

Sat, 28 Jan 2012 02:31:55 +0000

I have always been alone. Long distance is only a distraction and a burden. Being alone is better than being paranoid. For all of us who are alone, wait. Wait for the right person. I believe time will work us out as long as we are willing to wait.

A Shout from Sat, 21 Jan 2012 19:36:16 +0000

Sat, 21 Jan 2012 19:36:16 +0000

I spend my entire day selling engagement rings to people. Part of me hates them because they have the money to spend 20k on fucking rocks. The other part resents that they have found that person that makes them happy. I say I don't like marriage when in reality if I had had my way, I'd have been married for 6 years now. I miss you Cole, and I hope she makes you happy.

A Shout from Sun, 08 Jan 2012 12:51:06 +0000

Sun, 08 Jan 2012 12:51:06 +0000

A Shout from Mon, 26 Dec 2011 01:32:58 +0000

Mon, 26 Dec 2011 01:32:58 +0000

So Fucking lonely even with folks around and with no good fucking reason. Better try and sleep and hope tomorrow is better.

A Shout from Wed, 21 Dec 2011 09:58:05 +0000

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 09:58:05 +0000

Oh also. Considering I've fucked over 6 dudes in the last month I'm kinda thinking I need to get tested. If my world ended I'd be fine with that. Goodnight me.

A Shout from Wed, 21 Dec 2011 09:55:04 +0000

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 09:55:04 +0000

I hate my job, but I love the people. And I keep waiting for the day they'll tell me I'm not doing it well enough. Part of me would be happy to get fired cause at least I can have free time again, but the other part of me knows I won't find something that pays this well for awhile. I don't like being afraid though. No one tells you how much fear there is when you get older...

Also, In my quest to meet folks I've seemed to have lead on 2.5 people... Part of me wants to just say fuck it and tell them all what I really think of them. I like your dog and I think you're trying to hard to get me to like you. I think I'd like to mess around with you sexually, but I'm so tired of dating older guys. And you... You smell like B.O. have a weird voice and make really campy gay photography, so I'm fine with being your friend, but please don't mistake my interest in you for something romantic.

Between the other two? I think I'll go for the puppy and hope I can come to terms with your quirks. And as sad as it makes me to dump somebody, I think it best I be honest with you; I potentially think sex with you would be fun, but no more emotional attachment to older guys.
We're doomed.

A Shout from Thu, 10 Nov 2011 15:03:13 +0000

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 15:03:13 +0000

Well I fucked that one up. I'll just tell myself 'whatever' over and over again like I always do.

A Shout from Sat, 08 Oct 2011 18:37:21 +0000

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 18:37:21 +0000

Every time I'm beginning to everything straight and sorted in my mind, someone comes along and makes me feel bad about myself all over again.

I NEED TIME TO WORK EVERYTHING OUT. PISS OFF.