I spend my entire day selling engagement rings to people. Part of me hates them because they have the money to spend 20k on fucking rocks. The other part resents that they have found that person that makes them happy. I say I don't like marriage when in reality if I had had my way, I'd have been married for 6 years now. I miss you Cole,  and I hope she makes you happy.

about 1 month ago

I'm almost scared silly about what I'm about to do with my life..but I buried the fear deep down inside of me because I think I've finally found the courage to make myself happy.

over 2 years ago

Found it difficult to add an image because the Info & Help section kept sliding down over the browse and upload buttons.  I'm an IE user.

over 3 years ago

I'm almost scared silly about what I'm about to do with my life..but I buried the fear deep down inside of me because I think I've finally found the courage to make myself happy.

over 2 years ago

Found it difficult to add an image because the Info & Help section kept sliding down over the browse and upload buttons.  I'm an IE user.

over 3 years ago

I feel empty and i wanted to go to boston because i was hoping to take a class that might help me have more control and it got cancelled. Now i have the weekend off with nowhere to go and no one to share it with and i'm sick and tired of feeling hollow and thinking about pointless shit. God damn you Cole... I don't want to be alone but i hate most everyone around me because they make things complicated and i don't know what it means to be content. Make it go away. Insatiable greed. I feel like i'm using everyone and am too lazy to use my own two feet. I hate this place so much and the only way to feel better is to leave but i have to wait. Its just a year, but as soon as its over i'm just going to be caught in uncertainty anyway. Why do i ramble so much? Too much shit to think about. I just want to yell obscenties and punch someone without having to apologize for it. Fuck all of you and fuck my insecurities. I wish i could stab them until they were just a bloody huddled mass. This post isn't helping really. I still feel just as empty and violent. Fuck it, i'm going to the gym.

about 1 year ago

Dammit mikey, If you don't want to fill in the details then just say so. "Its not my business," would be just fine. But no, you'd rather leave me flopping around making assumptions trying to figure out what you're talking about. You don't want to be friends with benefits anymore and i'll deal with that, but when you take out the 'with benefits' part it leaves 'friends.' I'm not cryptic with friends and i expect better from mine. Dick. >:/

about 1 year ago

I know I'm old enough that this shouldn't bother me.  but two of my former best friends from across the country just got together for a weekend only four hours from me and never mentioned it.  I only found out when I saw their pictures on fucking facebook.  I'm so jealous -- I would love to have seen both of them!  Why didn't they invite me?  Do they still like me???

aarrrgghhh!!!

over 3 years ago

work you found me but will you take me?

over 2 years ago

I know I'm old enough that this shouldn't bother me.  but two of my former best friends from across the country just got together for a weekend only four hours from me and never mentioned it.  I only found out when I saw their pictures on fucking facebook.  I'm so jealous -- I would love to have seen both of them!  Why didn't they invite me?  Do they still like me???

aarrrgghhh!!!

over 3 years ago

work you found me but will you take me?

over 2 years ago