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So Fucking lonely even with folks around and with no good fucking reason. Better try and sleep and hope tomorrow is better.
about 1 month ago
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Dammit mikey, If you don't want to fill in the details then just say so. "Its not my business," would be just fine. But no, you'd rather leave me flopping around making assumptions trying to figure out what you're talking about. You don't want to be friends with benefits anymore and i'll deal with that, but when you take out the 'with benefits' part it leaves 'friends.' I'm not cryptic with friends and i expect better from mine. Dick. >:/
about 1 year ago
tired again, it seems to happen everyday around the same time
over 2 years ago
I feel empty and i wanted to go to boston because i was hoping to take a class that might help me have more control and it got cancelled. Now i have the weekend off with nowhere to go and no one to share it with and i'm sick and tired of feeling hollow and thinking about pointless shit. God damn you Cole... I don't want to be alone but i hate most everyone around me because they make things complicated and i don't know what it means to be content. Make it go away. Insatiable greed. I feel like i'm using everyone and am too lazy to use my own two feet. I hate this place so much and the only way to feel better is to leave but i have to wait. Its just a year, but as soon as its over i'm just going to be caught in uncertainty anyway. Why do i ramble so much? Too much shit to think about. I just want to yell obscenties and punch someone without having to apologize for it. Fuck all of you and fuck my insecurities. I wish i could stab them until they were just a bloody huddled mass. This post isn't helping really. I still feel just as empty and violent. Fuck it, i'm going to the gym.
about 1 year ago
tired again, it seems to happen everyday around the same time
over 2 years ago
Dammit mikey, If you don't want to fill in the details then just say so. "Its not my business," would be just fine. But no, you'd rather leave me flopping around making assumptions trying to figure out what you're talking about. You don't want to be friends with benefits anymore and i'll deal with that, but when you take out the 'with benefits' part it leaves 'friends.' I'm not cryptic with friends and i expect better from mine. Dick. >:/
about 1 year ago
I feel empty and i wanted to go to boston because i was hoping to take a class that might help me have more control and it got cancelled. Now i have the weekend off with nowhere to go and no one to share it with and i'm sick and tired of feeling hollow and thinking about pointless shit. God damn you Cole... I don't want to be alone but i hate most everyone around me because they make things complicated and i don't know what it means to be content. Make it go away. Insatiable greed. I feel like i'm using everyone and am too lazy to use my own two feet. I hate this place so much and the only way to feel better is to leave but i have to wait. Its just a year, but as soon as its over i'm just going to be caught in uncertainty anyway. Why do i ramble so much? Too much shit to think about. I just want to yell obscenties and punch someone without having to apologize for it. Fuck all of you and fuck my insecurities. I wish i could stab them until they were just a bloody huddled mass. This post isn't helping really. I still feel just as empty and violent. Fuck it, i'm going to the gym.
about 1 year ago
I hate my job, but I love the people. And I keep waiting for the day they'll tell me I'm not doing it well enough. Part of me would be happy to get fired cause at least I can have free time again, but the other part of me knows I won't find something that pays this well for awhile. I don't like being afraid though. No one tells you how much fear there is when you get older...
Also, In my quest to meet folks I've seemed to have lead on 2.5 people... Part of me wants to just say fuck it and tell them all what I really think of them. I like your dog and I think you're trying to hard to get me to like you. I think I'd like to mess around with you sexually, but I'm so tired of dating older guys. And you... You smell like B.O. have a weird voice and make really campy gay photography, so I'm fine with being your friend, but please don't mistake my interest in you for something romantic.
Between the other two? I think I'll go for the puppy and hope I can come to terms with your quirks. And as sad as it makes me to dump somebody, I think it best I be honest with you; I potentially think sex with you would be fun, but no more emotional attachment to older guys.
We're doomed.
Also, In my quest to meet folks I've seemed to have lead on 2.5 people... Part of me wants to just say fuck it and tell them all what I really think of them. I like your dog and I think you're trying to hard to get me to like you. I think I'd like to mess around with you sexually, but I'm so tired of dating older guys. And you... You smell like B.O. have a weird voice and make really campy gay photography, so I'm fine with being your friend, but please don't mistake my interest in you for something romantic.
Between the other two? I think I'll go for the puppy and hope I can come to terms with your quirks. And as sad as it makes me to dump somebody, I think it best I be honest with you; I potentially think sex with you would be fun, but no more emotional attachment to older guys.
We're doomed.
2 months ago
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